The Baby Brain Best Friend

The Baby Brain Best Friend

I’m going through a rough time. I’m feeling angry. I am the number one advocate for speaking about how I feel, so here it goes.

My best friend is one of the most beautiful people I know. She is amazing, smart and super talented. I wouldn’t be where I am today without her. We are similar in almost every way imaginable, except in one aspect: babies.

She has a very bad case (in my opinion of course) of baby brain. She is in the later half of her 20’s and babies seem to be on her mind a lot of the time. Which, ironically, is what I think is what society deems as normal. So in this warped scenario, I think I’m on the late train here. I just wish she would slow down a bit. HOWEVER, even if she slowed down, would I EVER catch up?

I’m sorry, I don’t want children. Actually, I’m not sorry. I’m not sorry at all. I LOVE my friend’s kids. I love my stepbrothers. Children are actually very beautiful people. I just don’t want to carry and raise one. Is that so bad? Is it so hard to think that maybe, just maybe, we aren’t here on this earth to JUST procreate. Maybe, just maybe, we are here to make a difference?

You see, I have a different calling than most people. A calling I can’t put into words if I tried; a calling that doesn’t involve changing diapers or giving teenagers curfews.

Yes, this is how I want to live my life. My friend wants the opposite. What are two best friends to do? Well, currently, I feel this tightness in my chest. Not sure exactly how to get rid of it. I’m going to have to increase my meditation practice to twice daily. But what I really need is to change my way of thinking. I just need to ACCEPT and SURRENDER……….