My morning routine
When I’m getting ready in the morning I always tend to do my hair first. Then comes makeup. I’ve never been huge into makeup. In fact, I wear the same three things every day; black eyeliner, mascara, and [easyazon_link identifier="B000VBH8OE" locale="US"]Maybelline mousse foundation[/easyazon_link]. The only thing I really do differently these days is put a little extra foundation right above my lip. A scar lives there. A scar with a story…
I had my ex-boyfriend/ex-friend’s girlfriend punch me square in the face several times. It was a night I want to forget but it was also a defining event in my life.
I’m actually turning 30 next week and I have to say, I am SUPER excited about it. Mostly because I am looking forward going into a decade of really knowing who I am. God, my 20’s was an utter shit show of not knowing who I was, not knowing what I wanted, not knowing what I wanted in a partner, not knowing what I wanted in every aspect of my life. A lot of not knowing….
But thanks to my beautiful spiritual awakening, nothing is a confused game anymore. What I never really understood was how simple it was to listen to your intuition. It’s the compass of your soul.
So with that traumatizing night came even more clarity. Being a big believer in the universal law of ‘everything happens for a reason’ I realized there were a lot of lessons in that fateful night, including a really hard one I’ve been trying not to face; these people are not my tribe.
Finding your tribe
What exactly does a tribe mean? A tribe is the people in your life that TRULY understand and appreciate you for who you really are. It doesn’t necessarily mean the people that love you. I don’t know about you, but I love a lot of people in my life that aren’t IN MY LIFE. Your tribe are the people that love you, GET you, and are usually on a similar mission as you.
It took me awhile after that night to truly understand that this ex-boyfriend/ex-friend could not be a part of my life at all. In reality, all along, he was never part of my tribe to begin with. With wisdom and spiritual awakening, I was finally able to step away from a toxic situation.
I know I am making it sound easy, but easy is the last thing it was. But I definitely got confirmation of my decision when pure joy started returning to my life. It was a happiness I haven’t felt in a really long time. My intuition had led me, yet again, in the right direction. All is beautiful, all is well.
Deciding to let go takes time, so don’t beat yourself up if you can’t immediately walk away from a toxic situation. You will be done when you are ready to be done. I was finally ready to be done.
This past week I accidentally saw a picture of us at a club, taken about 4 years ago (Thanks FB memories!). I cried a lot for our dead friendship. I got up to use the bathroom and when I was washing my hands, I looked in the mirror, no make-up and all, and I saw the scar on my face. I was able to take a deep breath and tell myself everything was going to be okay. [easyazon_link identifier="B000C6NPHC" locale="US"]Growing pains[/easyazon_link] are called pains because they aren’t easy….
I went back to bed and began my meditation followed by my prayers. He always makes it in there, along with everyone else I happen to love from a distance.
So I welcome turning 30, with my tribe by my side! It’s going to a magical decade for me, I can feel it <3