The only thing constant in this world is change.
As people, we are meant to evolve, it’s only natural. Everything that happens to us is meant to happen to us, to make us the people we are supposed to become. With that being said, I know QUITE a few people who haven’t really had any significant change in the last ten years. How does this happen? And what do you do if people are stagnant and you keep evolving? The struggle is real. This is my life in a nutshell.
Sometimes I feel as if people can’t accept me for who I am PRESENTLY. This means, they have IDEAS of who I am in their head, that doesn’t match who I am today. I also have to admit, I am guilty of this fact as well. It’s hard for me to let go of the past. So I’m sure this is the case with the people that can’t let go of past Justine.
Look, there’s nothing wrong with past Justine. She’s cool, just a confused and lost person. I remember in my early twenties, I changed my mind about where I wanted my life to be headed, at least 600 times. No, I’m not exaggerating at all. I was so lost in a career choice. I was so lost in the relationship department. I was so lost when it came to my living situations.
I’ve said it before and I’d say it again, I was lost but now I am found.
I had gone through a really long and difficult process of figuring out who I am and what I’m supposed to be doing with my life. So because that journey was done without the help from a lot of my friends, they do not understand the work that I performed on myself that has changed me FOREVER.
I really can’t blame them for that either. They don’t really understand the difficulty of what I went through. Therefore, I am as forgiving and patient as I could possibly be. Yet, it’s still frustrating.
This past weekend I went down to my hometown to celebrate a friend’s birthday. This friend is pretty new, he is dating one of my best girlfriends. But my best girlfriend and my other best girlfriend, I feel are both still attached to the idea of old Justine. I could tell because of the jokes being said, and the passive interest in my new life as a highly spiritual being.
It’s okay though. One thing I’m starting to realize now is that all of your friends don’t have to “GET” you. Look, everyone has multiple friends for different reasons. My best friend, Deanna, is my soul sister, and we talk about REALLY REALLY REALLY spacey things. One time we were on the phone talking about death and reincarnation and we literally had to stop ourselves and say, ‘I bet we are the only two friends in this world that talk about stuff like this’ and we had to laugh, because well, it’s true! My best guy friend is for dirty jokes and funny memes, and helping me understand the way men think (also, dating all of his friends, oops!). Everyone in your life is there for a reason, and everyone is there for spiritual growth, whether you like it or not. Friendships and relationships are NOT easy.
I’ve been thinking about this all morning, and I have to say, I am more at peace with it. My friends don’t HAVE to get me, especially when I talk spiritual-speak. In fact, I recently joined an entire sisterhood of women (Inner Glow Circle) who are on that level with me, and I must say it’s truly been a wonderful experience so far. This sisterhood is training me to become an intuitive coach and I couldn’t feel any more at home than I do with these spiritual beings.
I’m also not going to apologize for being the way I am, or what I enjoy doing.
I enjoy speaking about love and fear, and I enjoy meditating and reading articles about lucid dreaming and empaths. I will never apologize for the person I have evolved into.
SO, to my friends who don’t QUITE get me sometimes, I STILL LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!! I hope you’ll continue to love me and support me no matter what my new adventure is or how much I evolve. But I have to say, this spirituality thing is NOT a phase, and I am 100% certain of that. So please accept me, love me, and I will continue to do the same! Love you, dolls!