My Kundalini Awakening
Kundalini is a Sanskrit word for the primal energy of consciousness. It is said that this [easyazon_link identifier="1591797284" locale="US"]kundalini energy[/easyazon_link] lives at the base at your spine, coiled like a snake, and is usually released hours before death.
Mine was released in 2013, perfectly healthy and at 27-years of age. It was horrifying. I wasn’t sure what EXACTLY was happening to me. I consistently woke up in a cold sweat, had euphoric, cold air rush through my entire body, and had extreme empathy to the point that if I even looked at a flower, I would cry. It would be so difficult for me to walk the streets of NYC and see a homeless person because my heart would just hurt tremendously.
In addition to these strange circumstances, I was also SEEING and FEELING things that were extraordinary. When I would be lying on the [easyazon_link identifier="B005FKMVN4" locale="US"]couch[/easyazon_link], I could feel something OR MORE EERILY, SOMEONE. Let me tell you, it was the absolute WORST time to be living alone. It was really one of the only times in my life where I felt so SCARED. The funny thing is, I didn’t think these presences were out to harm me; it wasn’t that breed of scared. It was more of a premonition that was unfolding right before my eyes. You see, my whole life, I’ve always known there is something VERY different about me. I have this gift, that no one else in the whole world has, and I guess I just enjoyed pretending I wasn’t. Who doesn’t like to fit in? When all these new spiritual things were happening to me, I knew I couldn’t run anymore.
FEAR. Face Everything and Rise. Love that. So that’s exactly what I did. It was not easy. I cried a lot. But I faced EVERY SINGLE demon I had lying deep within me. This included my denial of real love, the fact that I truly believed not one single person on this planet loved me, my deep fear of commitment, and most importantly, my SEVERE lack of empathy, as well as gratitude.
My kundalini awakening changed my whole life. I am a completely different person. I missed the signs of a slow spiritual progression over the years, so the universe decided to jolt me into spiritual awareness. Tough love at its finest.
To this day, this was the hardest and most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me. I LOVE WHO I AM TODAY. LOVE HER. She’s a beautiful person. So, to those going through it, don’t fight it. I wanted to be NORMAL so badly. People are going to think you’re crazy, but just keep going. It can’t rain forever.