So I just got off the phone with my FABULOUS best friend who happens to be a coach as well. Let me just preface this by saying, that any conversation we have together is not really ordinary, we are NOT ordinary people, hahaha. So, with that being said, we started talking about the MIND and how we are NOT our thoughts. Okay, so if we are not our thoughts, what are we? We are our heart, we are love. So every decision we decide to make that is done without love will surely bring unhappiness. Because when we are not true to who we are, we can feel it. Our intuition will tell us.
Well, I have to tell you, I have a very hard time letting go of things. What people have a hard time understanding about me, is that I am highly sensitive. My high sensitivity brings vulnerability and the ability to FEEL things more deeply than others. A lot of people don’t understand that, hence why a lot of people don’t understand me.
I know I talk a lot about love and logic, and how choosing love is always the way to go. Well, I believe that to be true. BUT love and logic are not opposites of each other. In fact, I’ve been turning to logic a lot lately to better equip me to living in the real world. Are you confused when I say REAL WORLD? Yeah, me too a little. I guess I can explain it in a way where I FEEL I’m in my head a lot and I FEEL as if people live like zombies. My definition of zombies are people walking around on this earth and living a lie. I see this WAY too often, and it makes me deeply sad. So when I say coping for the real world, I have to remember, other people operate on logic and science. So I must adjust.
Since I have a hard time forgiving, I make the unfortunate mistake of identifying with my anger. Almost like, I forget what it’s like to not be angry, or feel a certain type of way about someone who has hurt me. I take on a victim role. But the truth is, the only person who can control how I feel, is ME.
I just have some harboring issues. I’m just done being a victim. What has happened to me in the past, has already happened. What good can this do to keep letting it resurface? NOTHING. Absolutely nothing.
I need to rule my mind, so it doesn’t rule me. And that’s exactly what I’m going to do, here on out.